I had never meditated before. It wasn’t until I was invited to this random home in Orleans for a full-moon Halloween event this past October. It was like nothing I had ever been to before but I was depressed, lonely, and desperate for help, so… I went.
I thought, “I must be here for a reason, I must have been invited here for a reason, so why not play full out?”
The evening was going well. I was interacting (kinda) with others but still keeping to myself, out of fear of bursting into tears randomly and wanting to leave. I held myself together continued to float around the room of women.
I tried foods I had never tried before- super healthy and “earthy” as I would describe. Not the types of food I was used to since all I was ever eating was Mcdonalds, candy, chips, and chocolate.
I also had my first experience of energy healing which was also interesting and eye-opening.
It got to the time where we were to head down to the basement to begin our guided meditation. I was intrigued and a little nervous.
We were to sit (or lay) down on the floor in a comfortable position to prepare for the meditation. I chose to lay down… ahh, so relaxing.
I’m paraphrasing here as I describe the meditation but it went something like this-
The hosts’ voice was so soft and gentle. It wasn’t long until I was fully immersed in the experience.
Close your eyes
Scan your body. What does it feel like? Look like? Wiggle each part of your body and allow it to relax once section at a time. Let go and surrender to the moment.
I felt calm and at peace. I hadn’t felt this way in forever.
Vision yourself beside a body of water in nature. What does it look like? Smell like? Sound like? Feel like?
I saw Lake Louise, although I had never actually been there before nor did I have plans to visit any time soon. It felt so calm and peaceful. Bright and beautiful.
Now see yourself as a young child. What does she look like? Is she happy? Sad? Curious?
She was small, cute, and forgiving. She said “Cass, it’s okay. We’re safe now. We forgive those who have hurt us. It’s going to be okay! We love you.”
This is the part where I started to ball my eyes out. Eyes still closed. Still laying on the floor of some strangers basement. Totally surrendered to the moment.
Now see yourself as you are now. What do you look like? Feel like? Who are you?
I saw myself as depressed, dark and grey. So sad, lonely, and ready to die. The smaller version of me felt so sad for me and told me that it’s going to be okay. That we’re strong and we’re here for you.
Now, see your future self. What does SHE look like? What is she like?
The future me. Wow. She was so vibrant, glowing, ad absolutely beautiful! She was full of light and ready to shine brightness into the world.
This entire experience was a whirlwind of emotion for me. It was also comforting to know that I could go back and visit them at any time.
The teacher said,
“Now remember this moment. Know that you can go back here any time you want to.”
So I did. I visited them often. The little girl in me was so brave and strong. The future me was so bright and happy. The two of them made me feel alive and together they held me up.
Who knew a single meditation could be the beginning of a total transformation.
Fast forward 8 months later and I’m sitting in the exact location where I saw that vision.
I never had any intention of visiting this place. Turns out I was incredibly blessed to manifest a trip to BC & Alberta and we just so happened to have time to stop here.
It was extremely emotional and exciting because, over those 8 months, I did the work it took to step fully into the “future” version that I saw.
I went through 2 episodes (months at a time) of being suicidal depressed.
I went to two Tony Robbins UPW conferences to help with the inner work.
I listen to podcasts, audiobooks, and motivational speakers daily.
I quit drinking.
No longer eat fast food.
Gave up pop.
Eat healthy meal & shakes.
Started a new business.
Ended relationships and manifested new ones.
All from that one meditation, my life changed. But what i’m realizing now is that I found the inner strength to keep putting one step in front of the other and to take massive action to become that bright “future me.”
YOU too have the ability to become that bright future version of yourself.
It’s up to you to take the steps required to get there.
You’ll never know what all those steps are but what’s important is that you decide to take that first step, to ask for help, to be flexible in the time and approach needed to get there and most of all, to not give up.
If you have been struggling with stepping into that future you, send me a message. I’d love to help you gain clarity and piece together the steps needed to get there.
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Much love always,
Your Life Coach & Friend,